For months Dr. H has been saying write just write what you are feeling. Somedays I would most days I wouldn’t. But for the past few weeks I’ve noticed how things I’ve done on my job for years without any thought at all I’ve really had to think about how to complete them,yes things have been off but I didn’t think that to bad they must have really been off. which it really hit me like a tone of brick yesterday when I thought I was ok and making it I really wasn’t. I was just going through the motions but what bought me to tears was truly God kept me when I didn’t realize I needed to be kept. I’m traveling in uncharted waters I’m ok saying I have days that I struggle to be ok and fight to be my old self. I want to smile again without having to think about it I just want joy deep down in my heart again. I know it’s a daily fight but the key is keep fighting and I don’t have to fight alone and for that God I grateful.